How do you like THEM apples?

New Livejournal People.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 18:15:08 GMT

New Lj. This one is here to stay. _melli_

~Melli
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Pics for tracy

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 03:22:01 GMT

Happy brithday to me!!!!

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 07:29:02 GMT

GO melli! its your birthday! we gonna party like, its your birthday!!!!!!

woot im so happy right now...and like i dunno....i feel different

i finally feel like ME again, i think it might be cause im finally moving on.

I dunno WHAT the hell it is....but it feels wonderful!!!!!!

~melli

p.s Hysterical convo with rosemary

petalessflower: You have been a wonderful these past months.
MeLLiXinSANE: rosemary
MeLLiXinSANE: are u breaking up with me?
petalessflower: No.
petalessflower: Melhia I'm not breaking up with you. I looooove you.

^
| this i what i mean by saying i'm back....lol

laterz loverz!!!!!!

THIS WEEKEND

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 17:16:57 GMT

god this is gonna be a long and GOOD weekend!!!!!!

im so excited!!!

TWO halloween parties!!

A movie!!!

AND MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

god i'm so happy!!!!!

I also thiknk i'm starting to be better (emotionally) and i'm pretty DAIUM sure i'm moving on : )!!!!!!!

I've finally decided what i'm gunna be for halloween!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok g2g start my insane day!!

LAters!!

~melli

Ipodness

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 05:54:10 GMT

My mom FINALLY gave me my ipod today and i am SOOOOOOO happy!!!!!!!!!

but yes ok...so melli is very happy blah di blah blah no one cares right?
WELL I DO AND I'M SO HAPY!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaslkfgabhsflwbanjskvd

ok.....i have to go calm down :D

~Melli

must be quick and fast and....yes

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 00:54:24 GMT

how sad is this.....im on the computer....at the library.....i'll tell u how sad....very sad

I cant say mucho even tho there is alot i want to say. But for now...i cant.

waiting till my comp gets fixed...POSSIBLY tomorrow *crosses fingers*

and and aaaaannnnddddd........IM GETTING AN IPOD SHWEEEEEEETTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so happy and excited...yay....a green ipod mini....WILL BE MINE!!!!!!

lol ok so i g2g but....hopefully i'll talk to u guys later!!!!! if my comp EVER gets fixed...thanks to my mom ...lol

Laters

~melli

ahhhhh

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 03:12:41 GMT

WTF IS IT WITH EVERYBODY YELLING AT ME TODAY!!!!!!!!!

WHATS THE FIRST FUCKING THING THAT HAPPENS WHEN I WAKE UPP TODAY?

MY MOM STARTS YELLING AT ME AND SCREAMING AT ME AND SLAMMING DOORS IN MY FUCKING FACE AND HITTING MY FURNITURE!!!!

ALL I DID WAS FUCKING WAKE UP!!! W...T...F!!!!!!!

and then lily was all bitching at me...cuz she thought i was likedissing her , when i was just jokin with her, i said i hate u for sending me the virus thing....i KNOW it wasnt her fault it was MY fucking fault either that it was sending it to everyone on my buddy list. and she took it as me being really pissed at her and was like saying "fuck you " and shit to me....WHAT THE FUCK LILY!!! cant u take a joke?

im so sick of my life right now.... i feel so detached from everyone in the group. the only one im close to right now is alison....and the brit....but only when he and i talk online....at school its like.....its always tyler and robert and now kc.....where the hell is everyone else?......im not mad at u guys its just that like...i never feel included anymore.....argh....

im in such a bad mood right now....i've been in a constant state of imploding since we got to the culver city location for school....i hate this feeling. its like...im going through so much shit and harsh emotions that im imploding......like the opposite of exploding...if i was exploding i wouldnt be afraid to like yell at people and tell them to their face, but im imploding. which means all of my fucked up emotions keep closing in on me and practically suffocating me.

i fucking HATE it.

w/e i'll get over it......eventually

~melli

20 ways to get to my heart

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 02:09:43 GMT

1. DON'T flirt with other girls. It makes us feel like we're not good enough for you. We feel like we did something wrong so you are making up for it with another girl.

2. Even if you're not going out, heck, even if you're not friends, don't say bad stuff about us. | We could be the meanest people in the world to you, but most of the time we're joking and we think you're serious. You haven't seen mean until you say something bad about us. We have evil sides and we're not afraid to use them.

3. We're not toys. | Don't just have your fun with us and drop us. We're serious about things. That's just mean and we'll spend days wondering what we ever did wrong.

4. Put your arms around our waist firmly but gently, holding us close to you. | If you can, smell our hair! For most girls, we try to succeed in making it smell and look good! Plus, we know you love the smell, why try to sneak around?

5. If you've done something wrong, fess up. | Tell us before we have to ask you about it. Trust me, when we ask, we'll be twice as angry, and that's just if you tell the truth. We know. We don't guess when we confront you. We have our connections, and we know what's going on. Lie to us and you can pretty much send your death wish.

6. When we say we love you, we mean it. | We're not willing to tell just anyone that. Our hearts are gentle and it's very hard to trust guys, and it takes time. Don't worry if you tell us you love us and we don't say it back right away. We do, we're just thinking about how sweet it was that you said it first. And if it takes a day or two, we're not deciding. We're figuring out how we can prove it.

7. If we have guy friends, we love how you hold us close when we talk to them. | We think it's cute when you get all jealous, but don't overdo it. We're not dumb, we're not gonna mess around. We're not flirting, so don't blame us later. Now, if some guy friend of our's is flirting with us, then you have every right to overreact and kick his ass.

8. Anything you'd want us to know about you... know about us, too. We'll memorize every fact. | We'll have our friends quiz us on how many homeruns you had in a season, what your favorite color is... But it's gonna hurt if we know so much about us and all you can say is, "Uhh..." and make a guess.

9. If our eyes are shiny, we're either really happy or we're about to cry. | Look at our smile and the way our face is. Is it the same way it is when you make us laugh? If not, we're going to cry. At that point, if you can tell, turn us so that we're facing you and wrap your arms around us tight so that we feel like nothing could harm us at all while we're there, and stroke our hair. When we cry, often we will bury our heads in your shoulder. If we don't, wipe away our tears. Whisper gently in our ear. Tell us it's okay, even if you don't know what we're crying about.

10. Know that we like it when you tickle us. | It makes us laugh and reminds us that you know that exact spot that makes us cry we're laughing so hard. It's cute.

11. Surprise us. | Call before you're at the door, make sure you have good timing. Tell us to look out the window, or open the door. We'll see you and hang up and run to your side. Bring flowers for now reason. Give us candy when we're down, that always works! Show up just to kiss us and see us smile.

12. Show us how much you love us. | That doesn't mean show us how bad you want to have sex. We're not walking beds. (So, in other words, we're not just easy lays walking around.) We love it when you whisper in our ear, or breath on our neck. We like it when you kiss under our jaw down our neck, resting your head on our shoulder. We feel like we're repaying you for every time we rest on you.

13. We love to look at the stars. | Plan a night to surprise us and don't tell us where you're taking us no matter how much we may beg. Take a picnic dinner, candles, a lighter, plastic glasses and sparkling cider. Don't forget to bring lots and lots of coffee for us! We love that stuff. Bring 3 blankets. One for the ground when we lay on top of you in your arms, one for over the top of both of you, and another that you sneak on top of her during the night, just in case she gets cold. Hold us close and let us look up at the stars in your arms. If we fall asleep, don't wake us up. Stay the night with us right there, and let us use you for a pillow. Get comfortable, but try your hardest not to disturb our sleep, because if we open our eyes we'll tell you to take us home.

14. If your friends think it's cool to have sex, it doesn't mean we do. | We have plans for our lives, usually. And if not, we're still not ready to handle that kind of pressure. Being in a relationship is a lot of responsibility itself, and having sex just means you have to be more committed. Wait until we're ready. If you pressure us, we're going to get mad and we might not ever have sex with you. (Another way to put it: We'll dump you, no matter how much it hurts.)

15. Sing to us in the quiet. | Even if you're horrible. Especially if you're good. We love to hear you. If you're bad at it, it just shows that you would show us anything, even if it's not the most pleasurable thing you would choose to do. It shows us you're open with us and are willing to do whatever we want. In the quiet it comforts us and reminds us you're there, and it really turns us on, and you're likely to get a kiss.

16. Dance with us. | With or without music. Even in the funniest of places. If we announce we love the song, that's your big hint that we want you to ask us to dance. And even if we don't say that, offer anyways. The worst thing we could do is say no.

17. Don't embarrass us. | If you act immature in front of us, we will scold you like your mother would. We'll chew you out and rip you a new one, telling you exactly how much we never want to be seen with you. If, in fact, you do embarrass us publicly, after we're completely through chewing you out, say you're sorry. Tell us you didn't mean to embarrass us and ask for our forgiveness. Then, once we sigh, put your hands on our shoulders and let them slide to rest on our hips. DON'T try to kiss us. Wait for us to be ready. Who knows how long we'll be angry.

18. Meet our parents right off the bat. | We love it when you include our family. If you get the chance, refuse to go out with us until you meet our parents. Figure out a day when you can come home with us and have dinner with the rents... Be Mr. Polite to the parents. Shake hands with her dad firmly and cooly. Shake her mother's hand first and be gentle. Do remember, she's cooking your food. Smile at them and smile at her afterward. If she has siblings, be Mr. Perfect. They'll love you if you tell them something they don't know. And if you show them how to do something, they'll love you forever. Keep in mind that they look up to her, so if you play your cards right, they'll look up to you, too. If they're older, they're sure to be protective. They might not appear it at first, but they care deeply who their younger sister is with. If it's a brother, be nice and polite and show him without action exactly how much you want to care for her. Prove to her whole family why you should be with her. Ask her dad. Make sure it's alright with him. Then, when you get the okay, kiss her hand and ask her to a date you've previously planned in front of everyone.

19. Pay for her. | She'd offer to pay for half and even all of it. Don't let her. Call it your treat. Even if you pay every time, it means that we have more money to spend on those little gifts we love to get you. Like those photo albums we love to decorate and put pictures of the two of you together. Those do cost money. And the cologne we get you for Christmas or your birthday? Yah, that's real stuff right there. It ain't cheap!

20. Last, but not least and the most important of all, love her. | With all of your heart, love her. Love her like there's no one else out there for you, because as far as you know, there isn't. Don't doubt our unconditional love for you. Kiss us like you've never kissed before. Hold us like no one could fit more perfectly in your arms. Love us like no one could fill that hold that we do any better. Look past the flaws that we constantly point out and even reject them. When we say we look fat or ugly, reject it instantly and remind us how beautiful we are. Point out something about us you love. Think about her before anyone else.

If you would kill for this relationship, repost this.

If you're a girl, title this bulliten, "20 ways to make a girl fall head over heels."

If you're a guy AND you're willing to do this, title this bulliten, "The 20 things I'll do for my girlfriend." <-- Even if you're single. We're talking now and later.

OMG WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 03:11:16 GMT

the world is ending

Mellixinsane: I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
scorpinem: wats rong
Mellixinsane: i'mdong hmwk
Mellixinsane: BUT IM ENJOYING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
scorpinem: alsfkdsjlfjalskjfljsadlf;kja
scorpinem: HOLY SHIT
Mellixinsane: I KNOW!!!!!!!!1
scorpinem: it is a cold day in hell
scorpinem: cuz im havin the same feelin
scorpinem: HOLY FUCK MY MO SHUD LOVE THIS SKOOL
scorpinem: MOM*
Mellixinsane: yessssssssssss
Mellixinsane: ITS A WONDERFUL FEELING THO
scorpinem: i kno
Mellixinsane: to know that i'm ACTUALLY being PRODUCTIVE with my work and having FUN doing it
scorpinem: in the words of TED
Mellixinsane: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHAHAHA
scorpinem: this is most excellent
Mellixinsane: haha yes
Mellixinsane: oh my robert this is wonderful
Mellixinsane: i love this school

The sad thing is it's true

haha

~melli

Poem for english which i am so proud of

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 01:54:05 GMT

I am From.......

I am from the mystery of fantasy and enchantment,

From dreams and imagination.

I am from the swirling fabric of a frivolous maidens dress.

I am from the power that blazes off of pride,

The movement of magic around a single step.

I am from every shade of brown,

I am from a secretive smile and shrewd gaze of mischief.

I am from the sound of laughter reverberating around a serene autumn night.

I am from the admiration of the ever changing moon, the honesty of the evident truth.

I am from the hearts of young ones trying to believe in themselves,

I am from the desires of those just wanting to be loved and those who could also care less of what the world thinks of them.

I am from the souls just wanting to break free from the confinements of society.

I am from those who would crave nothing but the feeling of standing on a cliff with the world at their feet, the folk who look at their lives and heave a sigh of pleasure.

~Melli

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 02:18:53 GMT

anyone want to help me and give me the answers for history? in exchange for algebra 2.....or vocabs for history?....lol

ACK i hate history and it hasnt even started.

~melli

RAINRAINRAINRAINRAIN

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 16:15:33 GMT

Its Raining for the first time in FOREVER!!!!!!!

I LOVE THE RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Melli

P.s Congradulations to Claire for making callbacks!!!!

p.p.s.....anyone want a german pike coffee? LMFAO...good times during that car ride....a polish kris coffee, english zach and colombian zach.....hahahaahaah

WE ARE FINALLY STARTING SCHOOL!!!!!

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 17:26:53 GMT

Renaissance Academy High School
School Schedule for the week of September 20th-24th

Monday, September 20th: No School.

Finish online assignments.
9th graders: Check teacher’s webpage for new assignments due TUESDAY.

Tuesday, September 21st: 9th grade only.

Classes begin at 9:00am at alternate location.
-bring notebooks, writing utensil
-bring lunch
-bring schedule
-bring completed online homework
10th graders: Check teacher’s webpage for new assignments due WEDNESDAY.

Wednesday, September 22nd: 9th and 10th grade only.

9th graders: Complete previously assigned work.
Classes begin at 9:00am at alternate location.
-bring notebooks, writing utensil
-bring lunch
-bring schedule
-bring completed online homework
11th and 12th grade: Check teacher’s webpage for new assignments due THURSDAY.

Thursday and Friday September 23rd, 24th: ALL GRADES

9th and 10th grade: Complete previously assigned work.
Classes begin at 9:00am at alternate location.
-bring notebooks, writing utensil
-bring lunch
-bring schedule
-bring completed online homework

PICTURE TIME!!!!!!!

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 03:12:50 GMT

HAHAHAHAHAHAH YESS!!!!!! pictures from the science center....these are the only good ones of our group.....good times......

My Ass looks HUGE in this Picture...but my hair looks nice...lol

These are the people i love...including Rsj..my big bro...whose behind kris, and alison..who is for some reason not in this picture

Haha its "the guys".....and keanan?...hahah gotta love them

Self explanitory i would think.......

And THIS conversation goes ...... Lily:" i hate this place i wanna go NOW" Tracy: "shut UP!!!"

Melli : "OOOOOO what does THIS do?...wait y the fuck are there stars?!!!"...Lily: "Your supposed to trace it with your HAND!"
Tracy:"...buwahaha...wait huh?....hahahahaahahaha"

*sigh* I love my friends so much.

~Melli

NEW LAYOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 06:10:18 GMT

Okay peoples....I MADE CHANGES TO MY LIVEJOURNAL LAYOUT!!!!!!!!!!!

so you guys better comment....

lol

my info is changed and updated too

LATERZ!!!!

~melli

P.s whose going on the field trips this week?

WTFUCK!!!??

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 20:25:17 GMT

Where the FUCK are my so called friends when i need them?

here i am..i've been back for 3 days already...and no one has called to say they want to hang....cept for tyler and rosemary... and i dont even think i'm gonna see them today....this is funking messed up

everyone is always like "i miss u so much" but no one ever calls to hang out.....wth?

i dont know WHAT THE FUCK is going on with school...and NOone seems to know

i'm ALWAYS there for my friends....if someone..needs help with something..or wants to talk about something...or is lonely...im ALWAYS there....

but now...there is NOBODY ..for me when i need them

all the friends i have...do they even really care?...no one ever invites me anywhere...or asks me if i want to them in something nowadays

all during school we where like a family...but now school is ...who the FUCK nows what the fuck is going on with schhol....where the HELL IS my so called family....everything is just kinda SHIT right now......

what the fuck ever....no one wants to call to hang so i wont even fucking bother to say "call me"

im gunna go do whatever the fuck i want as a loner....maybe tHATS what i'm supposed to be when i grow up a loner...cuz u know (LILY) "so few people make it into the acting buisness"...WTF!!!!!!REAL friends dont just fucking run over someones dreams...THANKS lily....real supportive of u to say that.....

whatever...i'll just fucking get on with my life....get high or drunk or something...like fucking " normal" teenagers do....FUCK

~Melli

im BACK!!!

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 07:47:25 GMT

Well...heggo everyone.....i JUST got back...and i am SOOOOOOO confused.....first thing that happens when i get back from hawaii...is a whole bunch of shit about school....i dunno whats true or whats not...i am so confused......people say it closing....people say its being delayed till like october.....then people AND the website....say it starting on monday and its fine...

i dont care what ANYONE says about or school....but i support it NO MATTER WHAT!!!!.....and i will only believe what i hear from the school ITSELF!!!

i'll be there on monday for the first day of school

more updates about hawaii... and PICTURES!!!!...later....im going to sleep

love u and missed you ALLLL.....so glad to be back.

~melli

oh yeah....a message from larsen

"they are fucking idiots
tell them that
all of them
that dont spread rumers it never helps
from larsen farrell"

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 19:27:28 GMT

one word.........weed...hahaahahaahaah

im not smoking it of course.....yet

~melli

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 04:31:08 GMT

last-

fight with a friend: whiile ago
ciggerette: never have smoked (ciggarets) never will smoke (cigarettes)
drink: uhm......a week or so ago...i forget..lmao
time you were on a plane: 5 days ago
time you were in love: few months ago

do you-

have a pet? 2 cats
ice skate? yes...once in a while
play an instrument? piano....sort of........if i practiced again
have a myspace/livejournal addiction? YES!!!!!!buwahaha
have a secret? wouldnt U like to know

for $100, would you-

make out with a stranger? ...depends on who the "stranger" is
drop your pants in public? i dunno...mehbeh
sing in front of an audience? of course...i love the feeling of being nervous (oOoer)
pierce your..."special place"? hahah never
come to school in your halloween costume...even though its not halloween?...dude....you wouldnt even have to pay me

have you ever-

been drunk? oooo yes...hwoot
smoked [ciggerettes]? NEVER
cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend? once...lets NOT go there
stolen anything? ooPS!!! yea
gotten lost in your hometown? ... in new york?...it possible

can you-

wigle your ears? yes *wiggle wiggle*
dance? yes..I LOVE TOO *breaks down on dance floor*
sing? yes...i love to
drive? I FUCKING WISH!!!! so i could drive acroos the water and come home
repost this survey?...what does it LOOK like im doing RETARD

do you-
have a penis- teeheehee....peeenis

omfg so happy

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 05:08:21 GMT

ok so i'm in hawaii and today it was raining so me and my mom went shopping!!! for back to school clothes...wut do i end up with?

awsome blue shirt!!!!

tight ass pair of jeans!!!!

really soft nice sweater!!

AWSOME CONVERSE HIGH TOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SO HAPPY

i love them,.......they are dark red with like....beige lining...they are WONDERFUL!!!!!!

hokay so...g2g/...call me!!!! miss u guys!!!!LATERZ

~Melli

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:26:53 GMT

I'm in hawaii bitches......CALL ME!!!!!!!!

(310)590-9206

~MELLI

Going going.....gom

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 21:28:00 GMT

Hey,

Just a little reminder to those who care…I’m leaving for Hawaii today and I wont be back till the 7th so I expect a lot of phone calls from everyone, and comments from people.

I'll try to update my myspace and my lj as much as i can....and i MIGHT be able to go online... but dont get your hopes up.....CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!

My phone works in hawaii, so unless i'm in the ocean swimming, i'll answer..(310)590-9206

See you all on the 8th back at school!

Love and miss u all

~melli

Gud day gud day

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 02:52:04 GMT

So today i worked from like 10 till 4 and made $48 ..which was awsome....my boss took me to lunch at Califronia Pizza Kitchen. Then She dropped me off a Big 5 cuz im lookin for a tight pair of shoes

ended up not getting anything and talked myself out of buying a skateboard

caught the bus and got harrased by som old guy who smelled REALLY bad and kept leaning over, trying to look down my shirt and ended getting off the bus early...

went to riteaid BOUGHT MYSELF A HAIR CURLER!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! mum's not going to be to excited but w/e ...what matters is that i'm happy right ;)

now i'm home and bored.....packing and cleaning...leavin for hawaii on friday...wont be back till TWO FUCKING DAYS AFTER SCHOOL STARTS!!!!!!!!

yay zach and alison and kris come back 2morrow ...*squee*

ttylaterz

~melli

P.s i've desided to no longer type...~Insane Poot....its just ~melli from now on

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

shit shit shit

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 04:44:45 GMT

wow ok.....so i was having a REALLY shitty day then i went to venice with tracy and lauryn and we got this guy to buy us vodka....we sat by the beach got REALLY cfuck ass drunk....hung round with some guys....then took the bus to the p-nade....went to brodway deli, lauryn got really sick..me and tracy got creme brule....shit it was SO fuckin scary ...the head waiter person found out laurn was sick and was like...." well i need a parents number or im gonna call the police....and he was like asking if we were drunk and i was fuuck fuck FCCCCCUUCK.....and then we made an escape and when we got outside the ambulance was there....and i was like lauryn we need to go like NNOOWWWW!!! and then we walked up to barnes and nobles and tracy
s mom picked us up..and now i'm home....still drunk..my nose is bleeding EVERYWHERE.........its awful...im trying to be sober so my mom doesnt find out..................FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!

~melli
~Insane poot

p.s/.....fck fuck fuck........i hope i dont get caught...........FFFFFFUUCUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK

She give me MONEYY!!! when im in neeeeeedd...i love this song!!!!!!1

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:13:19 GMT

Right so today i went to the new location....and hahaa i saw johnny duda!!!! hwoot..it was fun...i did some work and hung out with alison starcher and buckley and gelprin and tracy.....twas chill

now i am hyper and have NOTHING to do...!!!!!!HNJfiksalhfio wasklgfdbhaJ< FCbkbzskhsajk.bsaszuikjhkjvszbs

sorry...momentary spasm

*dies of boredome*sijal;dsv czx `m

hqahhahaha omy dear

i thibnk i am loosing ma mind

call me if you have any ideas of wut i could do......;p

~Melli
~insane Pot
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haha | I wish...... lol

~insane Poot